yes, my eye kept twitching.. both plak tu.. kater org mata kalau twitch means nak dpt berita buruk... i yes... today i finally know why the eye twitch.. not only that, my left palm asek gatal... which clearly means, duit nak kluar...

guess what, are u ready to hear this?? MY BLOODY PHONE DIED!!!! not the battery, but the whole phone.. and i am really sad and angry.. cos the whole world noes im gonna get my sidekick... now, nampak sah aku dah takleh beli.. i am so in need of a new fone.. tot of getting china phones, but i donoe how long it can last.. in fact, i still tink i wanna get my sidekick...gosh!!! im so so so sad!!!! i donoe why my mulut so masin. wen i want an xtra ez link card, the card i hv hilang.. wen i say i wanna buy a new camera, my camera rosak.. now i've been saying i wanna get a new fone, and it bloody couldnt cooperate with me.. this is so bloody irritating... infact now i keep saying i wanna quit.. i donoe if one day they'll release me.. atleast not till i get a new one... gosh!!!! am i not suppose to plan ahead??? n cant i just go thru life without having to go thru this kind of pain?? haish.. ok i noe i shouldnt complain... maybe i should sabar.. gosh.. should i get a phone now or during IT fair? wait, IT fair ade phone sales ker??? alah.. i don care.. i tink im just gonna ask for some money from makros and buy a new fone.... gosh.... i bloody just bought a new headphone lar!!!!! argh!!! ok bye!

I had this very weird dream last night which puzzled me…

I dreamt I was married to one of my Chinese architect.. apparently he converted into muslim and married me not base on love or anything.. in fact no one even match make us or whatsoever.. we happened to be ‘best friends’ so I guess dats prolly the reason y we got married.. haha

But while being married, I actually ‘played 3 wood’.. hee.. main kayu tiga lah.. so yeap. But the funny thing is, everytime im out on a date or if I happen to be ‘in love’ with someone else, I would actually tell him. Biasalah best friend lah konon.. so these ‘affairs’ been going on for quite sometime and I have been in and out of love with different ppl.. until one day, I came to him to mengadu nasib abt how sucky my love life is..

This is what he said.. ‘its ok, u still have me. Im ur husband’.. and with that, I stopped crying, looked up to him and was like ‘We’re married? Are u a muslim?’ and he was like ‘Yes, I converted, remember? (smiling away)’..

I remember having this stunned look and was like ‘Oh, u mean we’ve been married all along? I don’t remember. Heh!’….dat was exactly how selenge I was in the dream!!

Goodness! Kalau cerita mcm ni dijadikan drama ke wayang ke, confirm director kene maki punyer…haha.. I actually 4gt abt this dream until just now at work, when I receive emails from him.. hahah.. and I was like, SHIT! MY HUSBAND!!! Hahah.. ok I noe this is the crappiest dream ever!!

Shit, and as I just finish typing the last sentence above, I received, yet another email from him.. how?? I totally have no feelings for him.. like Chinese? Y wud I ever fall for a Chinese? I mean I do lah.. but the very hot ones lah.. ppl like him normally aku pandang pon tak.. hahah. kurang ajar.. but heh.. again this dream is WEIRD and crazy and takde kene mengena langsong dgn yg hidup ataupon yg mati!!

N now im like looking at him from a different angle.. ape ke tidak, dlm mimpi, he appeared to be very setia to me.. haha. Aku main kayu tiga pon dier diam..  waahhaha.. but ish! *slapping face* he is so not my type! Argh stupid dream!! Kenapa lah tak kluar kan muka shahid ke, tough ke, abo ke.. sedap sikit, ni, si sepet tu.. ewww…

ok.. so whats up? hee dah lama tak blog.. anw, wats new in life? well well well.. im finally taking up my Arab class! hah! i know u know my parents were against it at 1st.. but ya, i mean i know this is right and this is so not against Islam so i decided to do it even without their 'blessings'.. and im glad im enjoying my lessons. seriously, i LOVE my Arab lessons!! just dat i hope my pronunciation will be improved... esp that 'jin pakai toncet' letter, KHA.. u noe, u need to emphasize on the KH such dat it does not sound like 'K' bt KRRHHH... hahaa u noe like u want to spit like dat.. alah tak kuasa wanna blog much.. just dat, im too in love with my lesson to the point i chose to come back to work aft my lesson ends (which is at 9.30pm) to continue with my CQ amendment submission instead of skipping the lesson and watch the vid.. heh-ness.

ok. so, it seems like i am surrounded by hutangs.. well not exactly in the form of money, but more like, erm PICTURES!! hahaha.. i still hvnt send pics of the botanic picnic to my RG girls.. haha.. OH!!! I MUST TELL YOU THIS!!! we met up last tues.. guess where were we??
CASH STUDIO KARAOKE BOX!!!! itssss ssooooo ffffunnnnnnnn!!!! gosh!!! we had a fun tym. seriously.. but just too bad saihah cudnt join us and that adilah had to leave early.. but well, it was a BLAST man!!! n wat i enjoyed most was, listening to the girls, nurul, syaz and adilah (i think) singing to ASS LIKE THAT by Eminem.. well it is a RAP song.. and they sound ssoo funny singing it.. in fact they completed the WHOLE SONG!!! hahah.. *DOINGG DOINGG DOINGG* We sang songs by NSync, Five, not much of BSB, Pink, we even sang UNGU, Peterpan and Sheila on 7.. somehow the Hindi songs all gone.. donoe wat happened.. i rmb refering to a catalog last tym wen i went with cuzzie, but wen i was with them i didnt see the catalog till we were about to leave wen Nurul pointed the thick book which was all along at the back.. SELENGS!!! hahah.. so ok i truly had fun.. just hope maybe next tym can stay longer and sing more songs.. hhaha..And NEXT MEET-UP, GALLERY HOTEL!!!!! for nurul's bdae, her mom had booked a room at the hotel for 3 days 2 nights.. COOL RIGHT???? so, i ask nurul to chope the SATURDAY for us. i have yet to ask mom if i can overnight lah.. but confirm tak boleh.. :( hu cares, i noe i can still go there, chit chat with them then wen darkness falls, i can make my way home.. haha... CANT WAIT BABEHSSS!!!!

so ok... now, i shall upload pics and resize them. meeting nurul tmr to pass the pics.. heh.. cos if i need to upload on yousendit, sampai bulan depan pon tak successful.. ahhahah..

I WANNA GET A NEW RAM!!!!!!!!!!! bapak, pls, be a dear dad and upgrade my RAM for me. PLEASE!!!! i gave u my GST money ok!!! (heh ungkit!) hahahah.

ok im dead broke! like seriously!!!

KAK Yun, Have they emailed u??? hehe im really excited.. well its a mixed feelings actually. u noe, since my parents are against it... gosh! but im still gonna do it. ITS NOW OR NEVER!!!hahah.

well, i just bought something online!! hahah! a beautiful purple top! hee cant wait to have it man!

anyway.. kaklong, lets settle for the SECOND ONE!! hahah..
i really don want tis to end! really! but well.. the faster i get out of there, the better it is i suppose! heee.

RG GURLS!!!! I CAN"T WAIT FOR 10TH MARCH!!!! PLS PLS TRY TO MAKE IT!!! wish i can tell that to myself! GOSH! I STRONGLY BELIEVE WE'LL HAVE A FUN TIME! I MISS YOU LOADS!!!!!

I know i still owe u peeps gambar.. heee.. laptop buat hal ah babes.. pls wait till i upgrade the lappy. pls! so so so sorry!! hee..

~*MRS ABO*~

this week been a pretty bad week for me... surprisingly, work keeps me going. i managed to settle the As-Built drawings.. the one i have been doing for so long. well, wat to do, i was given the wrong instructions.. it was my 1st preparation for As-Built drwaings tho... not to worry, i do learn from mistakes..

anw, i must say, just this week, just these few days ago, i made a few people 'angry' or pissed at me. 1st of all, im truly sorry.. its just dat things are not working well with me n my parents, that i just CAN'T BE BOTHERED with fellow human beings..

So im gonna make a public apology,

Mom & Dad im sorry cos i just don want to listen to u this time. i just tot it is ok for me to take up the course. i dont understand y u r totally against it. but even if u don agree to me, i hope u guys wont dampened my spirit even more. u noe i've wanted to do this a very long time. n i want to take this opportunity to do wat i have been wanting to do, wat i have always dream of. im sorry cos i hv decided to do this even without ur 'blessings' i just tot it is time i do wat i want. i may not learn much, but its going to be a start to something good, InsyaAllah. i will try my very best!

Shila, sorry for not being able to help u. really i feel very bad cos i cant help u wen u needed me most. but its good to see that u r working towards ur dreams. and i do believe that this will all be worth it. just dont give up. strive on! u shud noe, every good thing we wanna do mesti ade halangan.. COBAAN! so, have faith in Him, pray hard and make sure, YOU NEVER GIVE UP!!!!

Mira, i noe its such a pain to plan outings tgt cos somehow someone will have to spoil it. im sorry for being such an ass!

im not sure if i am ok with wats going on and wats going to happen. somehow it felt so wrong. i mean y must this happen? i want to think that this is ok.. but somehow deep down u feel like it wont turn out the way you want. m i reading too much? to b honest i am not comfortable with wat is going to happen. but i guess for now i shouldnt think too much n just b prepared for the worst. afterall, its not important anw.. i am just going with the flow. i am just living the way He wants me to. n i am just thankful of wat has been given n wat i will get in the future. i don even want to pray for the best. i'll just dance to the music.

on a lighter note.. i am njoying my life ryt now. i somehow fear the future.. not that i am really scared bt i just donoe how i shud react if it ever happens.
anyway... i think, just like kaklong, i mite hv 'fallen' for him. well not fallen in love... but u feel like he is the oni one that keeps u going.. make u anticipate the next meet up n u see urself looking out for him like everywhere u go.. hahah.. i must laugh out loud.. hahha.. kak long will tease me if she ever read this entry.. n nadirah, u don b such a kepo kia!! anw.. i hvnt see my b&w checkered guy.. haish.. maner dier pergi? its like wen im late, i'll b too late. n wen im early, i'll b too early.. haishness.

anw, to all my friends, wen i ask u to keep secret, i really mean it. so wat if to u its a small matter. seems like ppl alrd noe the secret which i made my family promise not to leak.. n i am getting uncomfortable. probably it was a mistake to tell u in the 1st plc. but i tot i should just keep it within my family n close buddies.. so i need ur cooperation.. if u ever mention abt the 'topic' just make sure u talk abt urself n not me! cos up till now my family hv not leaked,. but u girls leaked to two person (as far as i noe). so pls. im not being angry at this moment. im just gonna close one eye n leave it behind me. really, just be extra extra careful next time. thank u!

i noe i owe e naims pictures and videos. it will soon be updated... by this week i will try to upload them. but the files r big.. so if i face any prob, i might just send via yousendit.com..see how it goes..

harap2 can upload on multiply. if not u peeps hv to sign up for yousendit.. lecehhh...

Kak eda have been requesting for the vid seha or ilah took during nini's bdae.. so if anyone happen to hv.. can send to me.. i have yet to search in my lappy.. i remember having the vid but i can't remember where i put.

so next party will be Emily's bdae.. yeah!!! i hope we'll have fun like wat we had during farah n kak caca's bdae.. hahah...

fyi, KEMUNGKINAN BESAR i will celebrate my bdae oso.. but see how it goes.. im just gonna invite family n close friends jer.. but again, see how it goes.. cos mom has been pot-pet-ting away.. so i am still considering whether i shud still proceed on.. i noe its a long way to go.. but pejam celik pejam celik dah june nanti.. hahah...

so ppl... just set aside a few hundred dollars for my bdae presents ok? dont say i didn't warn!! ahahahh

i love 61 n 64!!!!! kaklong, just stick to ur 18. ok???

2 nights ago i accomplished something i never imagine i could. I MANAGE TO SKATE WITHOUT ANYONE HOLDING ON TO ME. well at 1st zee, miza n mira did help 'support' me.. but towards the end, i was able to skate, slowly but independently.. haha suka aku!! ahahah.. at 1st wen mira suggest to skate, i was totally against the idea. cos i know i sucked! haha but wen i finally did agree and tried for the 2nd tym, hah i manage to skate independently.. well obviously the other gerls were way better n im happy for them.. but im just overjoyed that i too can do it.. hahah.. anyways, will upload the photos soon.!! let u guys see how much we had fun!! haha.

i hope to go through this once again!!! hahaha.. mane tau aku pon boleh jadi Ice Princess. hahhaa!!

3.22am but i dont feel sleepy. full day off tdy, yet i'll be busy. marketing in the morning, dbg in noon n skating wit fellow freedomz in the afternoon. oh man, im like broke. will need lotsa money for nxt mth. man! tudung shopping, meet up with fellow RGs n meeting wit shila.. argh!! i hope i'll hv sufficient 'funds'. trillium is still bothering me!!! shes becoming a bitch. nvr knew a 'butchy' cn b bitchy. still hv the girly side of them of cos. she so tink highly of herself... urgh! 'angels' turning into devils. looks is definitely deceiving. witch in a nun. bitch lingering around.

i lied, its 3.37am i AM sleepy!!!! im crapping, but u're still reading.. huak huak huak.

im so tired, so restless. eversince last week, i havent got a good rest. work everyday, OT, all night.. argh.. i just need a time-off man!! in fact, this weekend, i'll have to OT!! im so sleepy right now. my mind is 'lagging'. my eyes hurts from staring at the screen too long!

ah ok.. i don wanna talk abt work. cos at this moment, im hating it. haha. wan's engagement this saturday and arwah tok's kenduri this sunday will be a pretty boring time for me .like i've said, i will have to come back to work and complete my task all alone :( but monday i will hooray2 a little. haha. going to help out with KCMS again! distributing daging man!! n this time, i have ajak-ed jannah along. haha. i donoe y i enjoyed it so much. maybe because i get to erm be a VOLUNTEER and help the needy (in a way or so) or maybe because i get to skip paternal side or maybe because i will get to see the kambings.. so, im all excited for this monday. will b following zee, covering the east side.. skg ni aku tngah pikir aku ngan jan boleh tak bangon pagi. hahaha..

oh i actually have a surprise plan for FREEDOM 20. but when the time comes, i'll SURPRISE u ppl, ok??

i cant wait for saturday the 13th.. hehe.. nak pergi johor! nak beli barang! nak makan makan! nak jalan2! nak relax relax! semuanyer aku nak!!! i really cant wait to get my hands on the _________ hheheeheh!

btw, where can i get hand gloves dat can definitely keep my hands warm?? my hand gloves mcm dah tak guna gitu.. dats y i no longer use them. cos if i use, it'll make my hands colder!! wat the hell kan?????

oh, i will be helping my BF to set up an online shopping site. no, actually im just gonna use my multiply to do the 'selling' of goods. or maybe i should just create a new website for her. aiyah see how lah.. so ppl, when the site is up, i'll tell ya and pls, buy wateva u see is nice. ok? cos she is selling this for school need (so-called) heh. so, pls help her. ok?

one more thing, do pray that i can complete all this SHYTE by sunday!! ok Thank u!!!

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so.... neklong was able to get up today. but with help lah... Alhamdulillah!!! im so so please to hear. its like i have been going to makros plc everyday for s whole week cos neklong was very sick n weak. but skg, i hope she wont b weak again.

anyway anyway, i cant wait for next week!!! wee~ pls doakan i selamat pergi, selamat balek. ok!?? hehhe. im like so excited bt at the same time i feel rather scared. i jus hope i can get wat i want. i hope i wont waste money... im like on such a tight budget... i wanna buy bag, but tak jadi.. shoes pon tak dapat.. cos i've been so broke.. so sedih.

oklah. dad wanna use my lappy.thats all.

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GFA, GFA, GFA.. im so sick of it.. but wat to do. this is the job of the AUTHORITY. chey bebual macam mane besar punyer pangkat.. haha.. im doing Trillium project now. i donoe y lah, i always make mistakes or take my own sweet time to do Trillium.. since i 1st did it, i always mess it up till some ppl really were unhappy with me. but i just hope, this time round i wont be a gundoo again and do my work properly. but kan.. i really like the layout of this condo.. very the nice.. its not so big, not so small.. but i believe its very cosy.. hhaha k i wont elaborate much on the details of the design, but if u wanna noe more, go visit the showflat.. haha.

anyway ppl, i am very broke.. im broken into pieces.. its only 5 days after pay day n im already broke. :'( ..n i have 1 sister, 1 cousin, 2 friends and 1 uncle's birthday this month.. n how can i ever get them birthday presents?? Not only dat, I lost my DP access pass and guess wat.. I have to pay $20.50 for a replacement!!! But I don’t really mind.. cos I finally get to change my picture! Hehehe.  Argh BUT STILL!!?!!!? Broke is broke!! i cant keep borrowing money from mom or dad.. very the malu... n i cant take money out from my MSA.. very the leceh.. i oso cant take back my savings from makros.. cos she will KILL ME.. and beleter nonstop.. n she will tell the whole world dat i simpan the money awhile den take it back.. aiyah, u noe lah she like to potpet potpet. haha.. dat is y i chose her to be my bank. haha. cos the chance of 'withdrawing' the money is lesser... n in a way, discipline me to continue saving becos if I don’t, or if for that month I save lesser than usual, she will still beleter.. haha so now if I wanna get smtg, I must tetapkan 200 bux for ‘permanent’ saving then a few more for the stuff I want and inform her dat the xtra cash is for use at a later date... but for now im like left with less than a hundred till end of month - to be specific, $80 for 25 DAYS!!!!!! mampos-ness!!! and tis 80 bux includes the bdae prezzie.. haish..Mira n Shila, i hope you r not reading tis.. hahah. But don’t worry.. will still get smtg for everyone. But not anything expensive ah.. something MEANINGFUL. Haha. So shila, SWENSENS next month baru aku blanja kau eh.. haha..

anyways, Congrats to Shiha and her hubby, Farhan (i tink) for their wedding last sun.. semoga jodoh anda kekal hingga akhir hayat..AMIN!.. went to their wedding last sunday with nadirah n nabilah.. haha the fun part was to meet fellow HOTBABES and HOTCHICKS.. and 2 HOTDOGS... hahaha... i didnt camwhore much, memandangkan my batt flat.. so i just tompang2 camera org.. hehe... well it was fun lah.. tak sabar nak pergi org kawin lagi.. ntah2 ween dulu ke.. nurul shahidah ke (terpaksa letak full name..since there is so many nuruls in my life.. yang disukai, yang dibenci.. haha) korang2, kalau kawin, tolong lah eh takmo invite via SMS.. kasi card.. or atleast email.. JANGAN SMS!!!! U can sms to ask for the address.. but really, don’t jemput thru sms.. pantang aku! Thank u! hee. anyway, i donoe whether it was just me or the pengatin didnt really acknowledge our presence.. hmmm...

that aside, guess wat.. haha im like so happy cos I get to see my RG girls again!! Yeay!! Haha.. 1^st for hari raya den for dinner.. haha was suppose to watch coffin with them.. but u noe me lah, penakut to the max.. dahlah last week ade org commit suicide at my block.. idiotz.. so anyway.. I hope we can always meet up.. atleast lah eh, once in 2 months.. can girls?? Ahhaa.. wat I like abt hanging ard with them is, we like to recall abt the old days.. haahah. And dat time Tho showed us pictures of the malay girls back in pri sch.. KENTALAN habis siak.. haha.. I used to be one of the tallest.. now im like blending in with the *ehem* shortys.. hahaha. N my hair was ugly beyond words.. hahha as for Azizah, it’s a MAJOR change man!!! can still remember her 2 ponytails with ribbons.. hhaha and now her hair dah rebond!! Haha.. but it is really fun to be with them.. I see dat we still have dat ‘kiddish’ side of us wen we r together.. hahhaa.. oh n our next meet up will b a karaoke session.. CANT WAIT!! Although my suara tak lah sedap pon.. but I want to sing!!! Cos its fun.. haha. Will start practicing from now man!! Hahaa.. CAN’T WAIT TO SEE U GERLS AGAIN!!!!!

Presenting to you....

NurEmily Mohd Heelmi

cute kann??????????????